Well, here's what's happening in Randy's life....(run away now)

Ok, for those of you who remain... hello :) I've had a bit of a difficult time lately. But, they say that goes with living. I believe the quote was: dying is easy, it's living that's difficult. I'm going slowly nuts trying to keep up with 4-lawns continuously refilling with leaves. The downside to living in a neighborhood with older women being the primary residents. The upside, of course, is good cooking! But, what has me insane with grief and worry is that I may soon be losing another who is very close to me. I am not particularly well placed in my family. That's the nice way of saying "black sheep", isn't it? So, an Aunt who has been specially kind and a ready therapist, occasional cook and baker, a very close person to me....is in very bad shape. When my friend and neighor passed, my Aunt had been sick for about three days. That was 6-weeks ago. She went under the knife today - the big C. There are some things I just don't understand in life....that's one of them. So, in the span of a very short time, I am looking at losing two of the most important people in my life. Well, present company excepted, of course. You are all special, you know that. I don't know what I would have done had not one particular person been so kind and caring. He emails me often to see how I'm doing, and the funny thing is I feel closer to him than anyone I know....yet we've never met. I've been able to share this with him, and he's helped me remain sane...well, as close as I get. You know who you are, and I can't thank you enough!!! I'd also like to thank you others who have sent your concerns. It makes me feel very good to know that I'm not alone. I felt that way just a bit ago; mainly feeling sorry for myself but also just a bit frightened about losing another so dear. (I'm doing better now....). So, I've not been posting much lately, and I just wanted to let you all know that I haven't walked away or fell into the loo, got lost in the mail, what-have-you. Nope, just finding that there seems so little time when it becomes so dear. hugs to you all. -randy