Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Well, here's what's happening in Randy's life....(run away now)

Ok, for those of you who remain... hello :) I've had a bit of a difficult time lately. But, they say that goes with living. I believe the quote was: dying is easy, it's living that's difficult. I'm going slowly nuts trying to keep up with 4-lawns continuously refilling with leaves. The downside to living in a neighborhood with older women being the primary residents. The upside, of course, is good cooking! But, what has me insane with grief and worry is that I may soon be losing another who is very close to me. I am not particularly well placed in my family. That's the nice way of saying "black sheep", isn't it? So, an Aunt who has been specially kind and a ready therapist, occasional cook and baker, a very close person to in very bad shape. When my friend and neighor passed, my Aunt had been sick for about three days. That was 6-weeks ago. She went under the knife today - the big C. There are some things I just don't understand in life....that's one of them. So, in the span of a very short time, I am looking at losing two of the most important people in my life. Well, present company excepted, of course. You are all special, you know that. I don't know what I would have done had not one particular person been so kind and caring. He emails me often to see how I'm doing, and the funny thing is I feel closer to him than anyone I know....yet we've never met. I've been able to share this with him, and he's helped me remain sane...well, as close as I get. You know who you are, and I can't thank you enough!!! I'd also like to thank you others who have sent your concerns. It makes me feel very good to know that I'm not alone. I felt that way just a bit ago; mainly feeling sorry for myself but also just a bit frightened about losing another so dear. (I'm doing better now....). So, I've not been posting much lately, and I just wanted to let you all know that I haven't walked away or fell into the loo, got lost in the mail, what-have-you. Nope, just finding that there seems so little time when it becomes so dear. hugs to you all. -randy


Anonymous said...

No one can understand the 'big-C', or death. I'm sorry you are losing people special to you, but I guess that is life. We just have to accommodate and move on. There will be more people that will become special in your life.

Anonymous said...

Brian is right - and more than that you'll be useless to them if you're not strong. They need to see you being happy and successful in what you do. They need to see you as a rock and a continuing presence which will be there to carry on the good work even when they cannot.

randy said...

Hi Brian - welcome to the blog...
and Hi to you too, Micky;

Thank you both for the good advice. It's an interesting thing for me that I still look over to the neighbor's house and miss her, though I'm doing ok with that. And, I guess I'm doing better now with my Aunt. But, you both gave me the combined big thought for my day: I need to look ahead and be sure to be the strong person in all of this. Grief, yes, but end of world, no. Thank you both so much for this better understanding and better outlook. I actually do feel better, a bit more goal oriented right now.
So glad you both stopped by! hugs -randy.

Anonymous said...

Hello Randy. I have often thought that as long as the person is in our memories, they are still with us. I often feel close to ones who have moved on from the mortal coil, by remaining true to their spirit it is if they still are here.

At some point we have to decide what version of what is beyond death in this life gives us the greatest comfort. Some people have religiosity faiths that spell out what happens, and that gives them great comfort and I am happy for that for them.

For my self I have always loved the line from the movie "The Last Star Fighter". "I prefer to think of death as fighting evil in another dimension". That works for me.

Hugs and very warm thoughts for you,

randy said...

Hi Scottie;
That line works really well for me, now, too. Hugs and good morning! -randy.

J said...

Hey Randy! Sometimes a big hug works wonders where words fail, so here is a big hug! With much love, JR

randy said...

Hey, thanks JR;
You're right...the hugs always help. -randy