Sunday, July 24, 2011

It all but made me cry

Hi Friends;

  It's been a bit of a few weeks for me.  A number of small things a number of larger things, some anticlimatic, all seem to add up, though.
  I was over at Scottie's blog, reminded of the bombing and shooting in Oslo, and then began my normal scans for interesting things.  This picture came from ( HERE ) , a site I follow now on the linked Beautiful Men blog.  The thing is, the pictures leading up to this one held such beauty, peace, and longing for me, even a bit of laughter, that when I saw this one and continued to feel the raw nerves and wounds of the past bit, of the Oslo - wow, I don't even have a word, tragedy seems understated - and all, well, it immediately made an emotional link for me.
  I sometimes feel like this.  I sometimes feel like I've just been slapped, punched, and I stand there in pain wondering what I'd done to deserve that.  Oh, don't get me wrong, I've done plenty to deserve plenty, I guess the logical portion of the mind sort of forgets what the feeling portion holds.  None the less, somedays it all becomes just a bit too real.  Somedays I feel so bound up in my walls of stone, brittle and unyeilding that the mere touch of another is nearly enough to crash me to the ground.  I feel like I can't strike back, I can't escape, and I can't understand, I just have to take it.  That, my friends, is life.


Scottie said...

Taking James to dr apointment. Hope you are resting and happy. Hugs. Scottie

randy said...

I'm doing ok, thanks Scottie;